AAAAHHHH

To quote Kathy, "I need someone to organize my life".

He wasn't right for me. I couldn't pretend. I'm probably leaving this place and it isn't fair to him. He deserves the best and I'm not the one to give that to him. I'm worried about him. Really worried. I still care about him and he has a special place in my heart but I can't give him what he needs. I can't give him stability, security, or commitment. I'm young. I can't give anyone that.

I need to go home. Home is normal. People know how to drink at home without going crazy. People at home don't do stupid shit when they are high. If they party they have people backing them up and they know how to take responsibility. People at home don't have the qualities of borderline addicts.

I need to be in a place where everyone is accepted for who they are. A place where people aren't afaid of the rest of the world. A place where people embrace others and enjoy life. I miss the city.